My dear friend Morgan, recently posted a “Check-In” based off of a blogging idea where one checks in once a week to review how one is doing Physically, Emotionally, and Spiritually, as well as a goal for the week. At the end of here post she invited her readers to do the same, by writing their own “check-in” in the comments… but I figured, I should just write one here! After all, this way I can continue to fill you in on my mind’s ramblings.
Physically, I’m feeling better than usual. For the last few weeks, I’ve been working out with Jia on Tuesday (and some Thursday) mornings which is a great improvement over last year, where I was too lazy, and busy, to even think about working out. The downside to this is that I want to keep improving, and doing more towards my health, but I feel a little lost as to do this. I think part of this is that I have been doing a decent amount of reading about the difference between normal eating and eating to be skinny. I’ve been trying to learn more about the difference between trying to be skinny, and trying to feel good. To be honest, I don’t want to eat tiny salads as my meals for the rest of my life. What I do want is to feel confident and healthy, and I’m not there on a regular enough basis to say I’ve achieved that.
I’ve been on a bit of an emotional high recently. I had an amazing weekend last week and sort of rode that energy through the week. Now that I’m ending the week though, I’m starting to feel the crash that comes at the end of all sugar highs. You see, sometimes, I’m afraid I read WAY TOO MUCH into situations and end up getting all excited over nothing, so this crash is coming from me being unsure of whether or not this excitement of possibilities I sensed this past weekend actually has any basis, or if my excitement in the moment was creating a false reality. In many ways, this is a fear that I can’t trust my instincts in regards to relationships. Which, doesn’t surprise me at all.
I’ve been struggling a bit here lately. I’ve been finding it hard to make myself go to church, and haven’t really spent time going to chapel, or setting aside time to be with God. I have, however, been participating in a book study with some of my favorite girlies which has been reminding my weekly that I want to set more time aside for my spiritual life. Some aspects in particular that I hope I can improve upon is my prayer life, and my habits in regard to reading the Bible. I feel like prayer has been too ritualistic, not to mention spacey and random. Bible reading, on the other hand, has been non-existent as of late. I hope I can find passion for reading the Bible, the way I have passion for caring about others.
My goal this week is to be more aware of how my eating habits relate to how I feel (physically.) Also to spend time reading the Bible at least 3 times throughout the week.
Lots of Love, Mandi Jo
P.S. I also welcome you to write your own “Check-In” for the week and either put it in the comments below or just keep it in your journal, etc.