Recently I’ve been ruminating over my weaknesses. I’ve written about fears and have talked with some of you about the self-confidence issues I’ve had growing up. This week my hall is fasting. We all reflected on why we should fast, as well as what we wanted to work towards or accomplish through this fast and then chose a fast that fit these reflections. This week, I’m letting go.
For years I’ve been giving myself negative labels. Lazy. Slow. Unwanted. Un-lovable. Fat. Unworthy. So many bad thoughts have swirled around in my head for too long. I’m tired of hiding. Tired of letting these negative self-perceptions rule my life. So I’m letting go, handing over my self-doubt, self-loathing, and letting God care for me.
Because I am Beautiful. I am reflective, intriguing, caring, generous, and worthy of God’s amazing love. I was made in God’s image. Perfect. I don’t need to change to find friendship, to find that “relationship,” I just need to be the person God made me to be. I don’t have to be loud, or skinny, I just need to be me. Mandi, for I am worthy of love.
Lots of Love, Mandi Jo